so hunter is not the only one you have hurt Adrian

remember this?

ADRIAN CAN YOU HERE ME?

THIS IS NOT HUNTER.

"Saturday came and went and left the torture and agony of Sunday. Sunday, a cold and wet day alone in my bedroom upstairs with nothing but a window and an iPod for escape. Finally we headed home and I reached out to the one person I knew that would be able to make me actually feel like I was at home, although, we had never met. He was everything I wanted in a man. Everything I had felt unconciously when I layed in bed at night, and everything that couldn’t exist in the dark when I was scared, lost, or asleep. He told me I made him happy. He told me he hadn’t been as excited for a long time, and that made me warm inside." I AM SORRY HUNTER, I DON'T KNOW WHY HE DID THIS TO YOU. PLEASE DON'T HURT YOUR SELF.

HUNTER YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN THE SIGNS

YOU WERE CHEATED ON DURING BOTH OF THESE PARTIES.
you should have known he was gonna do this to you. If you read this. I am sorry.
hotdickdude69: Said somethign about his ex like gettin clingy or soemthing and like was n love or whatever

I know in your blogs you said adrian told you he loved you, but I am sorry to be honest and tell you it was all a lie. I am sorry everyone blames you.

cheating cheating and more cheating and lies.

When were you going to tell Hunter about all the times you slept around?
johnthomas ring a bell? you met him on http://www.barebackrt.com and you guys fucked right before school let you…it that not when hunter came to get you? Then there is randy and Chase Olin(barebacked with him) and then that time in buffalo with Steve Hayes andhe fucked you in his truck and you pissed on him in the shower. oh and that guy sean davis. A quote from steve hayes

“yes, u said you cheated on him a lot and he was too stupid to notice:)”

I will never understand why you did this to someone who loved you so much. And John even gave you a watch!!!, pictures of you and john, and steve cumming into each others asses…do you have any idea how dangerous and wrong that is to put Hunter at a risk like that. And you go around now telling people Hunter is the one harassing you…dude he hasn’t spoken to you and wants nothing to do with you. why cant you tell him the truth and say ur sorry…he loved you so much adrian. why are you doing this to him?

everyday is something new.

RIP.

Adrian, 8-31-09

You were the first guy to make me happy. You were everything I wanted in a guy and at one time proved to me love is something that does exist. I believed you when you told me you loved me, and I still to this day and when I am gone will always wonder why you could never tell me the truth. Why you could never be honest. I believe in my heart that you are so much better than you give yourself credit for. You are beautiful, talented, and overall the most amazing man I have ever met. I learned so much from you, but unfortunately I have learned to late and my heart and body can no longer handle not having you in my life. I never wanted to hurt you or make you unhappy, I moved to Dallas to start a new and have you next to me. I am sorry I stressed you out, and was over dramatic. I wanted to give you everything you ever wanted and I was coming out of my shell a month to late. Being in this apartment only haunts me. Waking up and not hearing your voice, opening my eyes, and not seeing your face. I wanted to make you feel safe, and loved but I failed. Failed to be the strong sexy guy you wanted. Every time you kissed me was a moment I cherished forever, and every time you told me you loved me was a gift from you, and something I believed from you up until you lied and lied and lied. I always asked why? You made me want to be a better man and then you left and it was as if the thought of you with someone else stabbed me. I know if you had ever given me a real chance I could have been the one you wanted. Something real, something worth trying for, and something to make you the happiest guy I know. I wish for you if you ever read this, to be confident and know you are better then sex and you need to open your heart and eyes to what I could have offered you. with you it was the first time in my life I laughed like I did before I moved to Dallas, and it felt amazing to have you be the one to make me laugh. You were the best thing that happened to me, and I will miss you, and I hope you will miss me to. Cause after you read this I will no longer be alive but I memory that I hope you learn from. Please forgive me for what I have done, and please know you were the last guy I ever loved. Even after I am gone, I will always remember you.

Love,

-Hunter-

I told you I would stay.

Two Weeks - Grizzly Bear from Gabe Askew on Vimeo.

Save up all the days
A routine malaise
Just like yesterday
I told you I would stay

Would you always
Maybe sometimes
Make it easy
Take your time

Think of all the ways
Momentary phase
Just like yesterday
I told you I would stay

Every time you try
Quarter half the mile
Just like yesterday
I told you I would stay

Would you always
Maybe sometimes
Make it easy
Take your time

I think we are done here.

As most know, I dated a guy named Nathan for about two years. We were engaged for a while, but in the end I kept fucking up and lost him. I thought money and being in the adult film industry was more important than being in love with him. I cheated several times during our relationship, and never respected him 100% I have learned a lot about myself since being with him, and when I try to distance myself and find a common ground with not having him in my life anymore he seems to pop up. I would find this nice if Nathan did not have such hateful and mean things to say about me. I understand you can never forget, but dude at least forgive. I may not be as happy as I wanna be right now, but it is you who truly deserves to be happy. I don't piss on your name, so please don't piss on mine. I am forever apologizing for the horrible nasty things I did to you. I am sorry you hold such negative energy towards me. Most of what you think is true, really isn't. But needless to say you have a right to think what you want. But I would think you know better. Get over yourself and go be a dick with your boyfriend who made you the boy (not man) you are today. You two were meant for each other.

REVEALINGblog

I am all for getting mad and cuttin bitches and taken names, but when you don't understand when someone is hurt because you either have no heart or you are dead, it makes it more difficult for a person to understand where you are coming from. In my break up with Zach I always have and mostly likely will continue to blame him for a lot of the pain in my life...well recent pain. But never when expressing my frustration and letting others know of my broken heart did I intentionally bash him or his name. I think it is hilarious and somewhat self-involved to think that it is all about you ALL the time. I am not gonna lie and say that I don't think about Zach on a daily basis, I do. But I am not going to keep my opinions and thoughts bottled up to fester and wallow inside, trust me I already have become numb enough. While I can move on and be somewhat okay, it never changes the fact that what was done was done, and what was said was said, and when lied to I was lied to. You can tell me to simply get over it, but that is what makes me human and some people cold hearted cock heads. When you get hurt physically and there is a scar...do you simply hope that the scar will disintegrate? No it won't it will always be there...mind, body and soul. The scar will always be present and be a constant reminder of what you lost or what was done.
The simple fact remains. I have not done anything to harm anyone. The reason I harp on it so much is to prove a point. People are ignorant. They believe lies and live in disbelief because to them it is so much easier to believe a lie, than to see the truth. This is taught during childhood. Believe what sounds like the better story, even if it hurts someone and cuts them down. Bull. shit. If anyone other than me took the time to scope out the truth and see the overall aspect of the situation it would be revealed that I have nothing to with this crazy, unsettling, lowlife, life ruining person who feels its better to read my blog, and take it and run with it. Using my words and taking them as his/her own. I feel in a way he/she is using my words to hide behind and using peoples ignorance to pass him or herself off as me. The only thing I know is God is someone who will deal with him or her accordingly. Point being that when someone stalks you and makes death threats on your life...I find it so much better to not point a finger. I have never once thought Zach was the one doing it because, yes I'm gonna say it, he is better than that. In the message below he obviously has better things to do with his time. I am sure ruining my life is not one of them. While I don't think he is the one stalking me, I do at times wish he did not do the things he did to me. The stalker claims he or she is someone who he had a run in with and it was not me. I am sure I am not the only person in Huntsville,Texas who has a problem with Zach. Even saying that I know I have no problems with him really. I just think closure is a gift everyone should be able to have. You're not promiscuous, just misunderstood, right? So before you take a gun and aim it at someone who you think deserves to be shot. How about you figure out where the gun you're holding came from, and if the person you're aiming at truly deserves to be shot.

"I'd prefer you took down number 14 on your little list of things. It's borderline slanderous, in terms of insinuating my promiscuity.

On that note, please delete the listed people from your friends list as you make them uncomfortable:
Fred Brandon Moore
Nick Gonzalez
Perla Dominguez
Cindy Botero
Dottie Lockett

Its really shitty. You have it in your head that i have tried to destroy you, but thank you for showing me my course in life. I will be leaving Huntsville soon enough.

I have never gone out of my way to make your life harder.

I don't care enough.

I never want to hear from you again, ever. EVER EVER EVER!!

I never truly loved you and will never ever love you like you think you deserve.




Delete who I told you too. Leave me and mine alone."-Zach-

New Place, moving, and falling deeper in love.

I am going to make a video when I get this place clean up and running smoothly. I am running around trying to get this apartment organized. While doing all of this Adrian is still back in Houston. I have been waiting and waiting for him to come back up to Denton and be with me. In that time I have realized that not having him around has made me want him more. I have been falling in love with him more and more everyday.
When Zach was gone, I made a promise to myself not to get involved with someone so soon. I half ass dated and didn't really want to find anyone. I found Adrian on a whim. I love having him in my life and I would not want it any other way. Sure we have hit some snags along the way, but that is what tests a relationship and makes it stronger. I love Denton, and can't wait to see what the rest of 2009 has in store for me. I am writing music and trying so hard to put together an album, and I am working with some really amazing people! So I hope you guys like my music when it comes out. I love and thank you guys for all the support you have given me and I hope to see you guys soon! :) -Hunter-

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Hunter does Dallas.

With a week going by, I am getting the hang of things in Denton, Texas and finding it interesting. I am totally missing my boyfriend Adrian who will not be coming to Denton until the 8th of Aug. The days seem to crawl by and the August 8th seems to be getting here as slow as possible. I miss Houston in a way, but I am enjoying my new surrounding and my new life...and can't wait to start sharing it with my man.

America's Next Top Model!

My sister is simply amazing.

Thought of the day.

"When life hands you a lemon...punch life and say..."I ASKED FOR A F*CKIN' MARGARITA BITCH!""

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

This has got to be one of the most weirdest videos ever. This goes to show that the world has some f*cked up people in it. This kid is never going to get laid ever, or if he does get married and his wife makes him mad, he could just become the next Chris Brown!

The Hunter Show: With Special Co-host..um..My boyfriend Adrian!

Don't judge me for what you are about to see.

My first Video from my new iPhone 3GS!!!

Robot makes Coffee. Adorable.

No stupid, I don't speak spanish!

So I think everyone by now knows I completely 100% hate my job. The lack of professionalism and respect that comes from my co-workers is outstanding. I mean that in the most negative way possible. No one really does their job, everyone complains about the customers they help, and it really is only when someone thinks that they're are going to open an account, does the fake smile start to show. It is a cut throat job in terms of sales goals and such trying to be met. Each month we are all given a goal of a certain amount of accounts to open. If we don't meet that goal we are almost immediately made to feel like complete and udder shit. It is also an almost impossible goal for me to achieve given the fact that 85% of the customers that come into my location speak spanish and NOT english.
I brought that somewhat obvious fact to the attention of my boss, when he asked me why last month I did not meet my sales goal. He also noted that two of the other co-workers make their goal and sometimes exceed it almost every month and asked what was holding me back. "They speak spanish, I don't" was my first response to his stupid question. I tried several times to prove to him that it was so much easier to meet a sales goal for opening account when your target market speaks spanish and you in fact are bilingual. He still didn't understand and told me that my reasoning for being behind was a poor excuse. Keep in mind that my boss is in fact Mexican!
The thing that drives me so insane is not only does he think that I can somehow magically pull spanish out of my ass, but anything I say is labeled as an excuse. I try not to say it, but at times I feel like my boss is some what of a racist. Calling me to preform a duty that is damn near impossible to achieve when I am basically a white dot in a sea of black...um I mean brown dots. He even had the nerve to tell me to "learn the language, or just get someone to translate, like a co-worker or something."
First of all I would never ask my co-workers for anything in the "will you help me?" department. It is about as pointless as going to a Britney Spears concert and expecting her not to lip-sync. I would rather push my way through the language barrier then attempt to ever ask my piss poor co-workers for any type of assistance, knowing full well that if I ask them for help landing an account with someone who speaks spanish, lord knows they're going to steal the account from me.
After this whole thing went down, I had one of my spanish speaking co-workers tell me I would never be a good employee because I "half-assed" my job and told me I disrespected him. I had never in my life been so infuriated or upset by a comment. But because my boss is mexican, and so is the co-worker that made this comment to me, I see myself getting in trouble rather then the other employee. "why?" you ask. It is simple. Whether or not I did anything wrong, I am quickly learning that everyone is a little prejudice or racist in their own way every now and then. This was proven to me once before, when my boss told me "Even if 85% of our customer base doesn't speak english, you need to open account anyways!" Okay jackass! But take a look for a second for me won't you? I don't speak spanish and I find it difficult to meet a nearly impossible goal. Two other co-workers who DO speak spanish never have the issue of not being able to meet their goal....because....magic bell!!! THEY SPEAK SPANISH!!! I am guessing that maybe my co-worker might not have been 100% wrong in his "half-assed" comment. I am an awesome employee and I try my hardest to take pride in my job, but maybe sometimes I "half-ass" my job, because I work for a "half-assed" company. Just a little observation on my part. :)

THE FINAL DESTINATION

After seeing the first three movies, I was not sure another one would be possible. I always get flack from people who tell me that I watch stupid horror movies and never take in anything with substance. I don't care lol. I watch a movie for the entertainment value. When I heard a forth installment of Final Destination was greenlit I was having my doubts just like everyone else. I really could careless that this one is in 3D...but the trailer looks pretty damn cool. Everyone knows the plot and understands what is going to happen. I find these movies enjoyable and for me entertaining. I guess I am easy to please. But Watch the trailer for Final Destination 4: 3D...I mean "THE FINAL DESTINATION" and I hope you like it. I know I will be waiting in line in August when the film hit theaters!

Here is the offical synompsis of the film.

"On what should have been a fun-filled day at the races, Nick O’Bannon has a horrific premonition in which a bizarre sequence of events causes multiple race cars to crash, sending flaming debris into the stands, brutally killing his friends and causing the upper deck of the stands to collapse on him. When he comes out of this grisly nightmare Nick panics, persuading his girlfriend, Lori, and their friends, Janet and Hunt, to leave… escaping seconds before Nick’s frightening vision becomes a terrible reality. Thinking they’ve cheated death, the group has a new lease on life, but unfortunately for Nick and Lori, it is only the beginning. As his premonitions continue and the crash survivors begin to die one-by-one—in increasingly gruesome ways—Nick must figure out how to cheat death once and for all before he, too, reaches his final destination. The film marks the latest in the highly popular “Final Destination” series, and its first 3D installment, giving horror fans an especially visceral thrill ride."


The Final Destination trailer in HD

Days until.....

Countdown Clock by Zoodu.com

Let play a game of not being a jackass!

As most know, I dated a guy named Nathan for about two years. We were engaged for a while, but in the end I kept fucking up and lost him. I thought money and being in the adult film industry was more important than being in love with him. I cheated several times during our relationship, and never respected him 100% I have learned a lot about myself since being with him, and when I try to distance myself and find a common ground with not having him in my life anymore he seems to pop up. I would find this nice if Nathan did not have such hateful and mean things to say about me. I understand you can never forget, but dude at least forgive. I may not be as happy as I wanna be right now, but it is you who truly deserves to be happy. I don't piss on your name, so please don't piss on mine. I am forever apologizing for the horrible nasty things I did to you. I am sorry you hold such negative energy towards me. Most of what you think is true, really isn't. But needless to say you have a right to think what you want. But I would think you know better.

Greg Laswell - Off I Go

This song was featured in the Grey's Anatomy season finale (Season 5) It is such a beautiful song.

The best season finale ever!!!

Grey's Anatomy's season finale was an emotional roller coaster!!! The music and everything else was breathtaking!!! Check it out! So beautiful!!!

Like Whoa! I feel it.

Relationships: Side effects may include...

Today is the day I have been with Adrian 2 months. I have never felt this way about someone before, and I find myself falling more and more for the guy everyday. When I met Adrian I never expected what was to come. Moving from "talking" to boyfriends was a big step for me. After Zach I had swore off any kind of relationship that involved love, attention or required me to put any effort into it what so ever. I did not talk to anyone with the intent of it becoming serious. I will admit I did a few times slip and find myself liking someone and enjoying their company and sex, but never could get past the damage that Zach had left behind. I was so scared of falling for someone and scared of them cheating on me or hurting me.
With Adrian so many things fell into place. With him I could (and still can) be myself and not have to put up any kind of front, and I never felt the need to question if this was something I was ready for. He made my fear of relationships melt away without me even knowing. I could smile for the first time in a long time and it not be forced.
Now coming into our 2 (almost 2 1/2) months of dating I find myself in fear again. Not fear of being in a relationship which I know I want and I love so much, but fear of over thinking. Adrian and I both have pasts that we are not proud of and have done things that we learned from and have moved on from. But with his and my past being similar I am scared to death of being cheated on again. I know Adrian would NEVER do that but the fear rears it ugly head about once a week or so. I have to constantly remind myself that I have met that right guy for me and I have made a promise to wait for him, and he is happy with that. Just because past men have done my wrong, doesn't mean that Adrian will follow in their footsteps. Adrian is an amazing man with an outstanding personality and I know he is faithful to me. I just don't know why sometimes I over think when it is not needed to do so. I understand distance plays a factor in this since he is not very close to me city wise at all. In all honesty him living four hours away has never been an issue. In fact I feel it is a good thing. As corny and cheesy as it can be distance does make the heart grow fonder.
I know that I am falling for the kid. I am falling for him harder then I think I have for anyone before, and in a way that is scary. I try to take his approach at it and be as laid back and natural about it as possible. At the same time I want to know that I am not wasting his time or mine. I want him to be happy and have the feeling reciprocated. I want more out of him in this relationship, but I know that you can not always have what you want when you want it lol. A want is a want, but what I need right now is what is right for us to work. What Adrian is willing to do for me makes me happy enough. I want more, but what he does for me is what I need. We both have made it a priority ( I think, at least to me I have) to be honest with each other and be there for one another. We both have chosen to be committed in this relationship. What I wish he could understand at times is that relationships are not always 100%. There are gonna be times where you can't stand the other person but that is by no means a reason to break up. It is something you learn from and it makes you stronger. Relationships are sacrifices and meeting at a common ground at times to make things work. Relationships can be easy, but not all the time. They can be stressful, but I think ours is stressful at times because of this distance and I refuse to lose such an amazing man from my life because of a few hours. I know I do love him and in time I know he will know what it feels like. I promised him I would wait, because I know this is a guy I wanna be with for a long time. Not "gay" time long time, but in general a long time.
The bottom line is a need to stop over thinking and freaking out. I may be scared of being cheated on, but that doesn't mean it will happen. If Adrian loves and cares for me then I should be able to sit back and know everything is okay, and that he and I are lip smackingly happy.
:)

Please don't forget.

Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me

Did you regret
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget
What we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget
I won't forget us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us

Like I give a shit.

My boy?

"I want a guy who brushes the side of my face then gives me a kiss,
holds my hand wherever we are to make everyone jealous
Someone who would sing to me at random moments.
Someone who would let me sleep on their chest.
A boy who would get mad at someone
if they called me ugly or was mean to me.
I want someone to call me 3 times a day if he went away.
Someone who would let me gossip if I wanted and would just smile,
agree and giggle with the news.
He would throw pillows and stuffed animals at me when I acted
dumb and then kiss.me.a.million.times.
Someone who would make fun of me just to make me laugh.
He would take me out anywhere, put his hands on my hips and
give me big bear hugs all the time.
He would tell his friends about me
and smile as he did it. :)
We would make out in the pouring rain, he'd never be afraid to say
'I Love You' in front of his friends and family.
We'd argue about silly things then make up.
I want a boy who would kiss me at midnight on New Years then count stars with me.
Someone who would stay home with me on a Friday night to make
dinner & watch movies while cuddling under the same blanket.
A person to tell me I'm handsome, but not too often.
Who would make me laugh like no one else could.
But mostly I want someone to be my bestfriend and would never break my heart."

Special Comment on Gay Marriage ~ Keith Olbermann

The Hunter Show: Gay Love Edition

The Hunter Show: Drop Kick yo' ass Edition

Just because you believe in the all and powerful GOD, please don't look at me and think because of the way I look, I need Jesus in my life. I have something to say to you....Fuck you...Jesus Saves! lol.

The Hunter Show: The Hey Fatty! Edition

Just my thoughts on fat peeps! For you Jayci.

The Hunter Show: The Ex-Boyfriend Edition

Ex-boyfriends/girlfriends are exes for a reason. :) Watch...Btw I am not fuckin Doctor Phil. Just passing along my thoughts lol.

The Hunter Show: The f-ed up Queen Edition

I am so tired of gay guys ruining it for the rest of us thinking that because they are gay they have to act like fuckin' pansy ass motherfuckers!!! You're a man. Act like it. Oh and to the fat fag in Huntsville who was talkin shit, you're fat for a reason!

The Hunter Show: Shout outs!!!

Some of my friends wanted a shout out...so hear it is...and yes Hannah Montana the movie I am going to go see. Fuck it.

The Hunter Show: Bitch Session Wed.

Moving Bitch sessions to Wednesday just for this week. So after much thought, I got to thinking about people and privacy. Britney and celebs in general. NO I am not trying to post a Chris Crocker wannabe video, just a topic of when something has nothing to do with you or your name, why does it seem that you have to be involved somehow? Why do other peoples actions need strangers attention? I feel what happens behind close doors, private or vulnerable need to stay that way. So in the future what people do sexually in their own bedroom, let it stay there and try to be respectful of the love people share when it has nothing to do with you. :)

Putting on a show? All for the love of God?

"Salvation"
By Langston Huges



I was saved from sin when I was going on thirteen. But not really saved. It happened like this. There was a big revival at my Auntie Reed's church. Every night for weeks there had been much preaching, singing, praying, and shouting, and some very hardened sinners had been brought to Christ, and the membership of the church had grown by leaps and bounds. Then just before the revival ended, they held a special meeting for children, "to bring the young lambs to the fold." My aunt spoke of it for days ahead. That night I was escorted to the front row and placed on the mourners' bench with all the other young sinners, who had not yet been brought to Jesus.

My aunt told me that when you were saved you saw a light, and something happened to you inside! And Jesus came into your life! And God was with you from then on! She said you could see and hear and feel Jesus in your soul. I believed her. I had heard a great many old people say the same thing and it seemed to me they ought to know. So I sat there calmly in the hot, crowded church, waiting for Jesus to come to me.

The preacher preached a wonderful rhythmical sermon, all moans and shouts and lonely cries and dire pictures of hell, and then he sang a song about the ninety and nine safe in the fold, but one little lamb was left out in the cold. Then he said: "Won't you come? Won't you come to Jesus? Young lambs, won't you come?" And he held out his arms to all us young sinners there on the mourners' bench. And the little girls cried. And some of them jumped up and went to Jesus right away. But most of us just sat there.

A great many old people came and knelt around us and prayed, old women with jet-black faces and braided hair, old men with work-gnarled hands. And the church sang a song about the lower lights are burning, some poor sinners to be saved. And the whole building rocked with prayer and song.

Still I kept waiting to see Jesus.

Finally all the young people had gone to the altar and were saved, but one boy and me. He was a rounder's son named Westley. Westley and I were surrounded by sisters and deacons praying. It was very hot in the church, and getting late now. Finally Westley said to me in a whisper: "God damn! I'm tired o' sitting here. Let's get up and be saved." So he got up and was saved.

Then I was left all alone on the mourners' bench. My aunt came and knelt at my knees and cried, while prayers and song swirled all around me in the little church. The whole congregation prayed for me alone, in a mighty wail of moans and voices. And I kept waiting serenely for Jesus, waiting, waiting - but he didn't come. I wanted to see him, but nothing happened to me. Nothing! I wanted something to happen to me, but nothing happened.

I heard the songs and the minister saying: "Why don't you come? My dear child, why don't you come to Jesus? Jesus is waiting for you. He wants you. Why don't you come? Sister Reed, what is this child's name?"

"Langston," my aunt sobbed.

"Langston, why don't you come? Why don't you come and be saved? Oh, Lamb of God! Why don't you come?"

Now it was really getting late. I began to be ashamed of myself, holding everything up so long. I began to wonder what God thought about Westley, who certainly hadn't seen Jesus either, but who was now sitting proudly on the platform, swinging his knickerbockered legs and grinning down at me, surrounded by deacons and old women on their knees praying. God had not struck Westley dead for taking his name in vain or for lying in the temple. So I decided that maybe to save further trouble, I'd better lie, too, and say that Jesus had come, and get up and be saved.

So I got up.

Suddenly the whole room broke into a sea of shouting, as they saw me rise. Waves of rejoicing swept the place. Women leaped in the air. My aunt threw her arms around me. The minister took me by the hand and led me to the platform.

When things quieted down, in a hushed silence, punctuated by a few ecstatic "Amens," all the new young lambs were blessed in the name of God. Then joyous singing filled the room.

That night, for the first time in my life but one for I was a big boy twelve years old - I cried. I cried, in bed alone, and couldn't stop. I buried my head under the quilts, but my aunt heard me. She woke up and told my uncle I was crying because the Holy Ghost had come into my life, and because I had seen Jesus. But I was really crying because I couldn't bear to tell her that I had lied, that I had deceived everybody in the church, that I hadn't seen Jesus, and that now I didn't believe there was a Jesus anymore, since he didn't come to help me.

Britney Spears: The Circus featuring The Pussycat Dolls 2009

Wow, what an amazing night. Michael (my best friend) and I got the VIP treatment. I won tickets on 104.1 KRBE and we got the hook up. We had amazing seats to the show, and we even got to go backstage and meet THE PUSSYCAT DOLLS. I must say PCD is just as beautiful and amazing in person as they are in their videos and are a talented group. People will say a lot of shit about them, but I say they are truly gifted. Michael and I got to hug every single member, and Michael and I even got a kiss from Nicole (The lead singer). Melody (My favorite one) complimented me on my star tats behind my ears, and then Jessica said she was thinking about naming her future child HUNTER! NO JOKE. I will also say they know how to put on a show making sure the crowd was entertained and involved. Live vocals (no lip-syncing) and dance moves to rock the house. Unfortuantly we were not able to take photos with the Pussycat Dolls (legal issues, and they didn't want to be photographed) but to meet them was an experience of a lifetime.
Britney came out and I must say that girl with all the flack she gets really knows how to put on a show! She made it totally worth staying up late, and she entertained to her fullest. The show has everything from magic tricks, to dancing to the sexually overt and seducing visuals Britney Spears is known for. If you are able to go see the show I totally recommend it. I know in the past I have gotten shit from friends, and ex boyfriends for liking Britney, but fuck it. I love her and she and the Pussycat Dolls gave me AND Michael and experience we both will NEVER forget! Thank you!


DRIVING TO THE SHOW


PROOF...THE GOLDEN TICKETS.





BACKSTAGE PROPS

BRITNEY CHANGES HERE



PCD!!!





SIGNED AND NOT FAKE!

NEW FRIENDS

ITS BRITNEY BITCH!









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This man in my life, he couldn't get any better. Can he?

I love you.

Beyoncé - New Music - More Music Videos

I loved this part right here!

Amazing. I got a kiss from Nicole the lead singer, and I even got to hug them all! I love PCD!!!

Pussycat Dolls - New Music - More Music Videos

Be careful what you wish for...

They are as amazing in person as they are in their videos!!!

Pussycat Dolls - New Music - More Music Videos

A smile on your mouth and your hand on your Huh!!!!

Probably one of the hottest videos I have seen. Lady Gaga is the shit!

Who?

So many times I thought I knew what love was
but when I am with you I know what it does.

The ground starts to shake and everythings gone
and when you look at me you do no wrong.

My heart pounds fast and I know its true
the sky has stars now, and its thanks to you.

I hold you close and would like you to stay
when you go I know its real, and you're not to far away.

It is so intense, this thing that you do
a passion that tingles and makes me feel true.

Stay by my side and never second guess
I thank you so much for making it unstressed.

So many times I thought I knew what love was
and now I know it is real and all that it does.

Thank you Babe.

F YOU STUPID PEOPLE

And the reason is you.

For about a year now I have been trying to avoid guys like the plague. I told myself time and time again that no man was worth my time, and after Zach love was not an option for me, and I should just keep walking the path I was on but just walk it alone. I never really dabbled in the dating pool. I never even had sex really. I met a few guys along the way knowing full well that it was something I didn't want and that it just didn't feel right. I was not only wasting my time, I was wasting theirs.
Then about a month back, I met someone. It was funny because when I got his message I thought nothing of it. I felt he was just someone who might be like every other cockhead out there who wanted nothing more than to see me naked, and he would be disappointed when his requests were not granted. I was in for a shock. He sent me a message mentioning nothing about clothing, nude photos, or anything. Just simply sent me his best wishes, and that he took the time to actually read my profile. I was impressed, but still keeping a close eye I watched my back.
The more we talked the more I wanted to learn about him. The more I wanted to get to actually know this guy. At first there wasn't really anything there, but after a few weeks of talking it felt right. It felt amazing, needed, and comfortable. I didn't feel ashamed with him. I felt that this was what I needed to pick my lazy ass off the ground. Yes I know I said I didn't need a man, but this man actually wanted me. It felt nice to be wanted, and someone take the time out of their schedule to talk to me and show concern for me. When he came home for Spring Break nothing changed, seeing him in person made everything better.
He never pressured me for sex, (which still hasn't happened, a good thing) he never made himself superior to me, he made me feel beautiful. He totally made walls fall, that Zach had forced me to put up. Even after being so honest with him about my past and my severe mistakes, he still held me and kissed my lips. It was what I had been waiting for. Now I find myself so happy. I have a boyfriend. Never thought I would say it again, and not feel embarrassed by doing so. I am not ashamed of him, or of the beautiful heart and soul that he possesses. He is truly what I needed to bring me back down to earth. :)

The Hunter Show: Bitch Session Monday!!!

The First Episode of The Hunter Show.

A little bitch session if you will.

It seems to me the older I get, the more I find myself looking back at my past and present and comparing the two. While I am not happy about the mistakes I have made in the past, I am happy to be making a plan for myself in the future. Now that I have gotten the seriousness off my chest, let me take a minute to have a rather blunt BITCH session.
I have never called myself a saint or anything of that nature, but one thing I know I am not is a liar. While I have done my fair share of lying and hurting people with lying, but I have learned that most of what people say is truth. On the other hand let me say that 80 precent of the gay community are pathological liars. (I don't fall in that 80 precent anymore) Now whether it be about what they do for a living, what they drive, who they are dating, or what their HIV status is, it seems to be a growing trend of the two-faced fag!
I bring this topic up because this past weekend, I went out with my guy and we went to a club. I rarely go to this club, I can't stand it, nor the people there and I was pleasantly reminded why I dislike the environment so much. Anyways, We went to have fun, drink a little, and just enjoy our last night together before he went back to Dallas. While there I saw a guy that I had talked to for about two weeks before I had met Adrian. I walked up to him and his friends, and introduced Adrian to Marc, and his friends. Marc introduced me to his "boyfriend" and when I looked up to shake his hand, I knew EXACTLY who his new "boyfriend" was. I simply laughed it off in my mind, but I was quickly finding myself pissed off. About two minutes later I noticed that Adrian and I were quickly being ignored until Marc and Adrian looked at each other and both recognized each other from middle school. What are the fuckin odds. Anyways after this had passed there was no point in standing there trying to make conversation. It was obvious that Adrian and I were about as pointless as a Wes Craven film. I got mad and Adrian coould tell I was livid.
The reason why I got so mad was because while Marc and I didn't work out (I still think his reasoning for calling it off was complete bullshit) one of the things he told me was "I think you're a great guy and I still wanna be friends with you even if we can't be more than that" I realized while standing there waiting for a simple "How's life?" that Marc and most every other gay guy I try to be friends with is full of bullshit. A simple "you were a great fuck but I don't wanna date you" would have made my day, and would have saved me the time of having to waste two weeks of my life, and my birthday on him, and would have saved me the effort of having to delete Marc from my phone.
I think the question is, why are gay men so fuckin fake? Why do they say one thing and mean another? Don't tell me you wanna be my friend, if your statement was full of hot air, and meant nothing and was your failed attempt at trying to be a good guy. Trust me I have had better promises made from my mother, and if anyone knows how she is, she is about as unreliable as a cheap toy from the 99 cent store.
Blow it up your ass cockhead.

How real?

In the blink of an eye, or maybe better said in the tone of a phone, life as I see it now has become so much better. Life is picking itself up. New Career, new living situation, and becoming involved. By involved I mean a boyfriend. Not since Zach have I truly been able to feel happy. Adrian is an amazing guy who I have been getting to know for about hmmm well a while. (4weeks) Its been amazing. I am excited to find out what more this guy has instore for me. All I know is a don't think I have ever laughed more, smiled bigger, or been more excited about a guy.

I'ma get that fuckin Hula hoop!

Who know that by adding a "LA" to your name that everything could change, change meaning that you create a completely new and different personality.

This song is about you.

Ha, ha, who, who
Thought you’d get the money, too
Greedy, mother fuckers
Try to have the cake and eat it, too.


Yo, check this out you greedy motha f******
I changed all my credit cards,
And switched all the locks to all my doors
You thought my heart would be destroyed
Look around cuz I’m chillin’ boy
Whatcha goin’ get your lawyer for?
I makes my dough and just for sure you know
Your lawyers should have let you know, you know,
When you sue me you gonna be broke, you know,
Ain’t no way you gonna bring me down easy
Any chick that you stick is real sleazy
Before I need you, I bet you gonna need me
You ain’t want me, anyway you wanted to be me.
What made you think I wanted to keep you around
While I work my a** off while you just lounge around, huh?
You slump, bum, son of a gun,
And uh, How much you worth? I think negative, done


Sharp shooter into breakin’ hearts
A baby gigolo, a sex pistol
Hollerin’ at everything that walks
No substance, just small talk
Know why you’re feelin’ on that girl’s behind,
You got a sleazy, one track mind
Workin’ your work until you find
Who’s goin’ home with you tonight.


I betcha think this song is about you,

Don’t you, don’t you, don’t you.


I’m doin’ better without you, and I’m happy without you.

Sweatin’ me but I’m not you’re type,
You think you irk me, and you’re so right,
I’d rather keep the trash and throw you out,
Stupid b**** in my beach house
No, I ain’t gonna go and act a fool,
And be the lead story, on the n**** news
Not me, sucker, I’d never be your lover,
I’d rather make you suffer, you stupid motha f*****

Who you gonna give it to? Who you gonna steal it from?
Who’s your next victim?
Who you gonna lie to? Who you gonna cheat on?
Who you gonna leave alone?
What you gonna tell her, after she discovers,
you don’t really love her?
It’s gonna be a show down, knock down, drag down,
gun slugger shoot ‘em up


You must have thought you had game, now you, what?
Walkin’ ‘round, like you’re down, you don’t give a…
But you don’t really wanna be forgot into the streets,
I’m a lover, not a fighter, but I crack your teeth
Boy I plead please, no, don’t bother me.
Cuz when you had me you ain’t know how to chill wit’ me
You wanna be in the streets with the freak-nies
But now you all up on them knees, still joggin’ me.
But I’m gonna say it real, real, keep it real,
What the deal? How you feel? Is it real? Is you sick?
Cuz I’m the deal, still here, what the feelin’
Is real, don’t front, cuz boy I’m the…
I’m doin’ better without you, playa, and I’m happy without you, playa,
This song is about you, playa
Motha f***** son of a gun, Janet!


Got a chip upon your shoulder, I just knocked it off,
Show me what you’re gonna do, I ain’t ‘bout to run,
You have just run out of ammunition,
Shootin’ blanks now, you son of a gun.


Who you gonna give it to? Who you gonna steal it from?
Who’s your next victim?
Who you gonna lie to? Who you gonna cheat on?
Who you gonna leave alone?
What you gonna tell her, after she discovers,
you don’t really love her?
It’s gonna be a show down, knock down, drag down,
gun slugger shoot ‘em up

No, no, no, no, no, it’s not what you say, it’s what you do
You’re so vain,
You probably think this song is about you,
Don’t you, don’t you, don’t you, don’t you.

To be With You.

By: David Archuleta

I've been alone so many nights now,


And I've been waitin' for the stars to fall.
I keep holdin' out for what I don't know
To be with you, just to be with you.

So here I am staring at the moon tonight,
Wondering how you look in this light.
Maybe you're somewhere thinkin' about me too.
To be with you, there's nothing I wouldn't do.

And I can't imagine two worlds spinnin' apart
Come together eventually..

And when we finally meet, I'll know it's right.
I'll be at the end of my restless road.
But this journey, it was worth the fight.
To be with you, just to be...

Holding you for the very first time, never letting go.
What I wouldn't give to feel that way... Ooohh...

Oh, to be with you...

Oh, and I can't imagine two worlds spinnin' apart
Come together eventually.

And when you're standin' here in front of me,
That's when I know that God does exist.
'Cause He will have answered every single prayer.
To be with you, just to be with you,

My little Poem.

You came around, unexpected and made me feel calm
waiting for you is just like a pleasant slow song

Your eyes and your smile, no one can touch
when I am with you, am I doing to much?

You are such a bright light
that shines sight to my path

it might be to soon, but with you I want that.

You are someone that I want, just give me a chance
to show you this is real, and how to slow dance

short and sweet and to the point, the wall is coming down
please stick around and add music to my heart,
without making a sound.

Hooters for the Gay guy!

Today I went to Hooters for the first time! It was so much fun. I got to spend it with my Mom, my Dad, Grandma, and my Sister. It was a Birthday dinner to remember! I even got called up to the front and got a B-day shout out, and did a little hola hooping!!! Bad ass!

I can be your addiction, if you wanna get hooked on me.

Where does the love go? I Don't know.

It's been in the past for a while
I get a flash and I smile
Am I crazy
Still miss you, baby
It was real
It was right
But it burned too hot to survive
All that's left is,
All these ashes
Where does the love go
I don't know
When it's all set and done
How could I be losing you forever,
After all the time we spent together
I have to know why
I had to lose you
Now you've just become like everything
I'll never find again
At the bottom of the ocean

In a dream, you appear
For a while, you were here
So I keep sleeping,
Just to keep you with me
I'll draw a map,
Connect the dots
With all the memories that I got
What I'm missing, I'll keep reliving

Where does the love go, I don't know
When it's all set and done
How could I be losing you forever,
After all the time we spent together
I have to know why
I had to lose you
Now you've just become like everything
I'll never find again,
At the bottom of the ocean

This is it
Let go
Breathe

You don't have to love me for me
To baby ever understand
Just know I love the time we both had
And I don't ever want to see you sad
Be happy'
Cause I don't wanna hold youI
f you don't wanna tell me you love me babe
Just know I'm gonna have to walk awayI
'll be big enough for both of us to say
Be happy
Be happy

Lying there frozen...

"Eyes Wide Open"


I could hear him breathing
No one believed me
No one believed me
I could hear those voices
So decieving
So decieving

Cool wind on my face
Cool wind on my face

Do you know how it feels to be afraid
Lying there frozenWith my eyes wide open
Do you know how it feels to find a trace
Of words unspoken
With my eyes wide open
I know your secret

I can feel you calling
I know that you're there
I know that you're there
Tell me all your memories
I'll keep them alive
I'll keep them alive

Cool wind on my face
Cool wind on my face

I heard you
I felt you
I know so what do you want from me

Cool wind on my face

Goodbye.

I can honestly say,You've been on my mind since I woke up todayI look at your photograph all the timeThese memories come back to lifeAnd I don't mindI remember when we kissedI still feel it on my lipsThe time that you danced with meWith no music playin'I remember the simple thingsI remember till I cryBut the one thing I wish I'd forgetThe memory I wanna forgetIs goodbyeI woke up this morning and played our songAnd through my tears I sang alongI picked up the phone and then put it downcause I know I'm wasting my timeAnd I don't mindI remember when we kissedI still feel it on my lipsThe time that you danced with meWith no music playingI remember those simple thingsI remember till I cryBut the one thing I wish I'd forgetThe memory I wanna forgetSuddenly my cell phone's blowing up with your ringtoneI hesitate but answer it any wayYou sound so aloneI'm surprised to hear you sayYou remember when we kissedYou still feel it on your lipsThe time that you danced with meWith no music playingYou remember those simple thingsWe talked till we criedYou said that your biggest regretThe one thing you wish I'd forgetIs saying goodbyeSaying goodbyeOohGoodbye

A song that I hate to love.

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest oneI still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of youThinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

Me First & The Gimme Gimmes

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Me First & The Gimme Gimmes

AWESOMENESS!!! Part 4:15

The best group of them all! Watch around part 4:15

America's Best Dance Crew (Season 3) - MTV Shows

You can't handle me!

Hello Seattle!

Unstoppable

Don't you wish you could???

I have two fingers!

How can you be so heartless?

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a man so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so, cold as the winter wind when it breeze, yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You need to watch the way you talkin' to me, yo
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend, well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely


In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a man so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?


How could you be so Dr. Evil, you bringin' out a side of me that I dont know...
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does he be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know, he's hot and cold
I won't stop, won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than me

[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

[Verse 3]
Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night....

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a man so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

Men are just boys.

Men are just boys who say what you wanna hear
Men are just boys who can drink much more beer

Men are just boys but a little bigger in size
Men are just boys that I just despise

Lead me down a path that I thinks paved with gold
then stop me to short and say I can't pass go.

Men are just boys that can make you feel good
then turn around and you feel like you're misunderstood

Why get caught up when it blows up in your face
never knowing how safe is a safe perfect pace

First dates are fun, and then you crave more
Men are just boys that you want to adore

Men are just boys who are sly a bit wiser
Men are just boys who think they're higher

Why bring the wall down, only to build it back up
knowing it was a mistake and now you're just fucked

That's how men work, never giving that chance
Men are just boys that know how to dance.

Men are just boys who enjoy a little more sin
Boys are just guys, who want to be men.

Breaking hearts at the drop of a dime
Never seeing what is real and what they could find

Men are just boys who say what you wanna hear
Men are just boys who can drink much more beer.

"I'm just goin' down to the Oyster Shack!"

This is a really funny video. It just goes to show that either the cops in this town are really bored and have nothing better to do, or the guy driving the lawn mower thought he would cut some grass while trying to get to the Oyster Shack! Lol.

A little insight and a lovely show from Christian Dior

PARIS, January 26, 2009
By Sarah Mower
There are only two questions anyone is asking Paris couturiers this season: "What are your inspirations?" followed swiftly by, "And what do you think about the recession?" John Galliano's answers were "Flemish painters and Monsieur Dior," and to the point, "There's a credit crunch, not a creative crunch. Of course, everyone is being more careful with their discretionary purchases. I am. But it's our job to make people dream, and to provide the value in quality, cut, and imagination."

He'd cross-referenced the soft blues and golds of Vermeer and the elaborate lace collars and sleeves of Van Dyck with typically Galliano-esque hyper-exaggerations of Dior's tight-waisted, full-skirted fifties shapes. As a starting point, it evoked some of the romantic femininity of Dior's silhouette, but with surface ruffles and bouncing crinolined hemlines that went way beyond any sense of postwar austerity. As for the seventeenth-century Dutch elements, there were cross-laced corseted backs and cartridge-paper scrolls standing out on hips, and, as things progressed, tulip prints and blue-and-white Delftware embroideries peeking from the underskirts. The finale dress, in a gorgeous deep burnt red, had the stately dignity of an historical movie costume—not so much Girl With a Pearl Earring as Rembrandt's Jewish Bride ( OK, that's yet to be made, but the color's exact).

Oddly, though, the clothes became lovelier when the collection didn't stick so literally to the Old Masters—either painterly ones, or the founder of the house. When Galliano escaped the sweet Vermeer palette and moved into ivory, as he did with a slim dress implanted with raw-edged georgette rosettes and embroidered with silver leaves, or with an ingenue off-the-shoulder fifties dance dress banded with black bows, it all seemed simpler, fresher, less stilted. And more like the kind of thing that will actually keep Dior clients dreaming, and, hopefully, spending. This is from Sarah Mower...for more information, and coverage of the 2009 Spring Couture collections visit www.style.com/fashionshows/review/S2009CTR-CDIOR

May I have your attention please?

So the time has come to make a shout out to myself I guess. I am ready. I am willing, and I am hopeful. I am going to do this without caution, and do my best to give it my all. My God give me the stength to do what I need to do and what is right. No more blaming Zach, or using him as an excuse. He did cause me great pain, still does, but there is no need to dwell on it. Especially now that I have possibly found something even better than him to a T. I will miss him, but I know and I and hoping in my heart that this is what God as intended for me to do and that it will all be good, and safe for me. May he receieve everything he ever wanted, and may he be safe. (I am trying my best to be positive) I wish him the best, even if He does not wish me the same. I have something new...something I have been too scared to want, and now I have it, and I feel this is right. So no being scared. No finding excuses for why I am not ready. I am just going to spread my wings and fly.

Now pose for the camera.click.click.

These are just some of my favorites.